Susan meets Craig for the first time and for a moment sinks into her innate intelligence. This slipping into innate intelligence may be due to Craig’s enchanting behavior, may be due a sense of relaxation & relief (since exam results had been declared the same afternoon and she had cleared the exams along with a few others), may be accidental, may be due to the ambiance....... there are “N” number of probable reasons and one can never know for sure what made it happen but the bottom line is that on that evening at that party during her conversation with Craig it happened. Now the innate intelligence is the storehouse of all the positivity and goodness in our lives, the moment she slips into it like a flash everything change, everything appears so beautiful, so fresh, so alive and like a pleasant breeze this phenomenon just sweeps Susan (who is now feeling her existence as light as a feather) off her feet. She is experiencing profound SILENCE, the surroundings are merging into each other with indistinct boundaries and amidst this pleasant experience she is with Craig. So Susan sinks into her innate intelligence and COINCIDENTALLY it happens during her conversation with Craig.
Now begins the fundamental mistake. As soon as she reverts to her social intelligence (words and mind stuff) there is an immediate recognition of the pleasant experience she had gone through. “Conversion of a feeling generated in innate intelligence to a mere memory or idea in the format of words and labels of social intelligence” has occurred. But now the social intelligence will not rest, it is like the tiger that has tasted fresh blood.
The social intelligence which is totally unaware of the existence or the reality of innate intelligence immediately gets busy to find out the cause behind the pleasant experience she had had. Craig is identified as the obvious cause for the sense of elation and pleasantness and this precisely is the fundamental error.
“Identification of outer world objects, persons and situations as the cause of happiness which actually was generated within one’s very own self (within one’s own innate intelligence) by the social intelligence”.
Now the greed to obtain and sustain happiness via media Craig takes over Susan and it will keep her restless until she gets enough and more proof, a sought of guarantee, that her new found source of happiness (in this case Craig) would continue to be with her forever. This precisely is the cause for all the worry and excitement initially, “that whether or not this source of happiness would continue to be with me?”
Once Craig hints at his approval then this question (“that whether or not this source of happiness would continue to be with me?”) gets answered and a sense of settlement, relaxation and calm prevails all of a sudden this again pushes her back into her innate intelligence refreshing her and making her feel pleasant and now she comes out even more convinced that Craig is the cause to her happiness and her greed to obtain and sustain this happiness takes firm roots within her. Now she will become possessive and extremely so, since she sees Craig as a resource of her happiness and is haunted by the fear of losing him.
So she eagerly waits to convert this “holiday home of sorts” relationship of theirs where there is a lot of freedom for both individuals especially Craig who is still not completely committed into an “impenetrable castle” of marriage. All this is being done only to ensure that her source of happiness is ensured to stay with her. So when Craig proposes then there is no time to think or wait she takes a plunge she had been so eagerly waiting to.............
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